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[Oct. 24th, 2007|03:23 pm] |
Obi-Wan does not, by nature, remember his dreams.
He chooses not to do so.
If he wakes with the stink of smoke in his nostrils, he chooses to believe that Anakin has burnt breakfast again. It is not the smell of a lightsaber sliding through his Master's flesh. It is not the smell of the funeral pyre. It is simply a clue that it would be better to choose grains over eggs on that particular morning.
If he wakes with the bitterness of copper heavy on his tongue, he chooses to believe that he has accidentally bitten his cheek in the night, even if he cannot find the place inside his mouth where teeth scored flesh. It is not the lingering after-taste of the blood coughed up in Ventress' presence. It is not the scarlet he shed on Jabiim. It is simply a matter of having pressed his face into the pillow at the wrong angle.
If he wakes too hot, his hands still clenched as if locked on broad, sweat-slick shoulders, he chooses to believe that what the body cries out for the heart does not necessarily need. It is not a proof of any feeling. It is not one more time he's turned his back on the Code. It is simply an indication that a cold shower is in order and nothing more.
And if he wakes gasping, unable to breathe because the sight of that masked monster fills the entirety of his mind's eye, he chooses to believe the image is only a dream and not a vision. It is not a prophecy. It is not a sign of something that is coming, something that he cannot avoid, somethings that will take from him all he now knows. It is simply...
It is simply the reason he chooses not to remember his dreams. |
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